best laughter

Well, it seems like time is running too fast for me. And I have been making bad choices lately.

I have started this school year not right. And so what should I expect on the latter days. Looks like a long ride on a rollercoaster. I’m sure not going to get this right in time. Hopefully not.

First two weeks of school, how do I describe it? I’ll say it was appalling for me – this applies to what I have done. If this were work, it would be tantamount to slacking. I think I am again on an adapting phase after two months of being a complete no-use guy.

Let’s talk about what happened at school. There were quizzes, recitations during small-group discussions and case presentations, series of lectures, and a ton of readings. Until now, I have not done anything of those satisfactorily.

I have not finished any of the readings which were really a sort of waste of time since I could not get all those information in my small brain. I even tried sleeping early and waking up at twelve midnight to start reading until four (with DVD breaks once in a while, hehe) and yet I have not finished them all and almost none of what I have read were absorbed and processed into memory.

So what could I expect on the quizzes? Hehe, they were all good quiz papers, definitely qualified to be crumpled, tear into pieces, and thrown in the garbage can.

And we have those several small group discussions. I have not even uttered a single word on those several sessions. Well, maybe just few words but only during that interview portion in our Pediatrics discussion. Good one.

I even opted to watch DVD series on my laptop than attend to all these medical school stuffs. What kind of student am I? Maybe I should throw this laptop out; it has been always an accomplice to all the bad things that has been happening. All those late nights watching The Simpsons or The Office, and House instead of preparing for the quiz or SGD. Whew!

And so what did I do in class? Logic – I just sleep on all those several lectures. I was just too sleepy to attend to those speeches full of medical jargons that my mind can no longer process. I don’t even know the fundamentals in Radiology because I have been half asleep during the lecture. Same with the surgical considerations in dysphagia. Oh, what am I doing?

Seriously, life is really a matter of making good decisions, choosing the best choice. And if I really do not start getting all these things right now, I’m really sure I’ll get drop down the rollercoaster. As for me, Medicine indeed has become my best laughter.